Malarum Ninaivugalum

Monday, October 12, 2026

An Ode To My Childhood Home An empty house near the foot hills, Where this adult infant stood still! When chances arise, I’ll see my childhood home, again! The sad view… Recalls once well-lived! The grand roof top, With all the memories trapped within! Great many years of paradise Where, I lost my loved ones. In the deepest darkest past! In the dark, When the lights are off; The strangers lay still, Ravaging the cabinets Snooping the crevices. Years of struggle, An Answer to my prayers, Came back to my hands! The scent of my home! Which Stayed forever, forever with me! Within the four walls The work of family architect! Unpainted walls - holds deep Of the memories past! The voice of my love, Sealed in that attic!! Resentment of my silent pain How could others can’t see? What I see??? The place : for the magic it did to me! The place that I grew! The Red door is completely Locked! But, I constantly run through it A hundred times!!! To get away from it, FAR, far away - NOT planning to return! But, seemingly come back Each time…when the roads END! Those weary things, Holds my stain. Dull and full, can tell One heck of a story!! Withering steel stairways Slowly unravels of what TIME has done to me! When I cry myself to sleep Closing the eyes…completely shut; Deep down in the dark… When none could find NOTHING! Yet…I could unleash my stigma To reach the knobs & feel the slabs! An hour before dawn… The time, I usually overcome memories! The Pain seeps in, Looking for my Mom, Dad and Brother! Is it ONLY me????? Just — ME?? Against this whole world Now? What am I going to do??? How could every new experience Override the past? What kind of amnesia is that? No matter what I do The places I go.., Why would I keep coming back To my own square one — HOME. Home - is where I belong When nothing I own, belongs to me! Why would it be my “Home”? Maybe that’s the only place… In this world - I could call as “Home”. The place that have sealed my childhood life! Well-preserved and immortalized Just for me. My childhood home, I’ll see it again! A saddening view! As memory fogs my brain, There is a pleasure in it too! Everything was right, here. ONCE! I could fix it, I Think!! Stop it! Stop the time!! Just…let me go… I’ll make everything right! …all over, ONCE AGAIN!!! 🥀